Day 41

Yesterday, a student of mine used my computer to log into his Facebook account to show me a picture of the piece of art he had created for a fundraiser at his school (he's very talented, btw), and in doing so, he logged me out of my "professional" Facebook account-- the one I use to maintain the Facebook page for my work.  I figured I would just log back into that account when I need to post something on the Facebook page.

I figured wrong. 

This morning, I received an email from Facebook letting me know that our Facebook page had a few "likes" and "views", but when I logged in to check it out, Facebook redirected me to my previously deactivated personal Facebook page-- without even prompting me for a password!  I received an email welcoming me back, and I was face to face with my old account and all of the meshugas I have been trying to avoid for the past month and a half.

In the past couple weeks, I have really come to embrace my decision to leave Facebook.  I feel freer and lighter, with more time to focus on the things I want to focus on, and while I know that people are posting ignorant, hateful things on Facebook, I don't have to see those posts.  I no longer read a post and obsess about whether I should respond or not, and what I would say, and what that person might say back to me. 

I'm not ready to go back. 

And the sinking feeling in my stomach when I realized what had happened confirmed that.

So I re-deactivated my Facebook, for an unknown period of time!  Here's to taking charge of my own experiences!